BabyFiQ

2010-01-25T07:02:00.000-08:00

what did you see in this picture?

that is how i felt...

sorry

i'm closing down this blog..

i dun wanna read this anymore..

i'm moving on..

www.fyfyqyqy-chacha.blogspot.com

nobody wasnt force to love.

2010-01-19T06:39:00.000-08:00

nobody wasnt force to love.
we choose.
and if you choose to be in tat love situation..
then pls treat her good..
i cant bear to see her lie that..
keep cry..and stuff..
look!?

every girls haf the rights.
and that goes the same to the guys..
but that doesnt mean eu can relli destroy or bring us down?!
understadn that ferst?!

pls ehk!

2010-01-19T06:28:00.000-08:00

firstly.
i will like to say this to my dear baby:B
babe,
i guess u better think betol2..
i tak raser dea hnstly serious...
he doesnt seem to bother about you..
why?
why must he said like tat?
i bacer i terperanjat tau b?!
aper maksod dea?!
aper dea sengajer?what the hell?!
come on ah even if dea nak bodoh2kan pmpn..
not with my friends!
pls!
berani!?cuber?!
dorg pk aper pmpn stakat uat hiasan?!
pls!!
fer eu the other hand?!
stop hrting my fren?!
kao berani bersemuker nan aku..
i dont expect my fren to cry because of you!!

just wana a painkiller

2010-01-19T01:25:00.000-08:00

its killing me..
The pain just won't go away.
it simply keep coming..
I hate this....
Whenever it cam I will be thinking about the freaking eu!!
Why!!ur the cause i'm miserable now.
The pain that tortured me..
The back that relli kills me till now.
I just wanna it to go awa..just go..
So that I wont be reminded of u at all..
But.that doesn't seem the way..
Hais!?pls..someone...i need a painkiller..
Rellii..Haiss...pls!??!??!?!??

ily

2010-01-18T02:14:00.000-08:00

i just dun ken what to do anymore.
i just feel so clueless.
all i wanna do is to be with you..
but everytime i tot of this matter..
i lost my everday mood.
i just dun kne why
i love u somuch my dear..
and to haf this felin of losing eu just destroy everything.
it just did!
now..since things has become a bit difficult since mama kne about it.
i dun kne what she going say...
i'm afraid she will..
not be frens with eu..
tahst the last thing taht i will ever think of..
i just dun wanna taht to happen
it hurts ok!
i realli love eu so much?!
pls baby..
ily!
al i ever thnk about is you!

wht!

2010-01-16T04:41:00.000-08:00

it just hurt me badly to see you like this..
it realli hurt me..
why must it all happen when i haf love eu?
why?..
i miss u my dear..i relli do..
i'm sorry if i hurt eu...
i just got no mood.
u may smile in front of me..
but i kne deep dwn ur hurting..
ily.sayang

insomnia

2010-01-15T22:00:00.000-08:00

today..
Hais..wat a 1/2 day..
I was just about to get asleep...just to get enuf sufficient sleep.yet..someone just had to disturb it.i alredi have insomnia.yet.that someone just has to freaking wake me up.hais!?
Alredi wake me up..nevermind.now.i'm hnstly suffering..i need air..haiss..suffocating..i need fresh air..faster monday come..at least ei get to werk..at least..hahs.
My eyes is so..watery..i mean its gng to tear any moment.my eyes getting heavier...haiss..
My com is down..what!?yeah..ITS DWN..irritating..haiss..missing my frens..when wanna lpk bebs?haiss..miss eu ol damn much...

2010-01-15T18:45:00.000-08:00

aku tersiksa..
Tersiksa dengan katanya cinta..
tiada gunanya aku menangis..membuang air mataku..
Perkare telah terjadi..
Balasan illahi...
Aku hanya stakat bisa menyerah kepada illahi dan takdir..

setiap hari aku hanya bisa mendoa agar keselamatan mu selamat..
Aku tidak sangup meninggalkanmu atau lepaskanmu..
Hati ku tersiksa..
Setiap kali aku memikirkannya.
Aku harap dan berdoa yang tebaik untukmu sayang..

hate eu

2010-01-13T04:24:00.000-08:00

you keep doing this..
stop hurting us...
we r not ur toys.
you happy u joke.
you not.you leave??!

ENUF

2010-01-11T04:14:00.000-08:00

YOU left me in a hush.
YOU keep thrashing me.
YOU left me tearing like nobody business.
and now..
YOU want me to clear those thing away..

LISTEN HERE!
whoever you were and what u did fer me..
YOU meant NOTHING to me anymore..
YOU were from the past.
AND trust me..
EVERYONE JUST HATE YOU TOTALLY.
TOTALLY!

STOP COMING BACK CAUSE THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO..
WHOEVER I CHOOSE TO BE WITH IN THE FUTURE IS NONE OF UR BUSINESS..
I AM HAPPY WITH MY BF.
END OF STORY..
YU KICKED ME LIKE YOU NEVER CARE A SHIT..
SO WHY SHOULD I CARE FER U NOW?
I LEFT CAUSE I DONT WISH TO SUFFER WITH YOU ANYMORE.
THE END!

lesson learnt

2010-01-05T01:57:00.000-08:00

~ i relli dun kne what to do anymore~
all i wanted to some time was to just end this crap.

~but i relli dun kne wat to do anymore~
i just felt that i lost a life of mine..

~dont ever comeback to me~
i realli meant what i said..

~i'm strugling with eu around~
i meant it..

you just there

2010-01-04T08:55:00.000-08:00

the tears keep flowing down every night..
whenever u appear in my dreams..
i am afraid to sleep cause i do not want to sleep with tears all over me..
i do not want to keep crying every night..
i do not want you to keep appearing in my dreams..
Please..let me move on..

everyone keep telling me off whenever i am reminded of you..
i honestly do not know what to do..
i am lost...
yea!
i just wanna move on.
i do not want to be reminded of you everyday..
every time i reminded of you..i just cant smile anymore..
i tried to control my own feelings..
even it hurts badly..
but there is no other way.
since everyone hated you.
there will never be a chance..
a chance fer me to be with you again..

its hard to be in love..
its hard to smile when your still hurt..
its hurt badly..when you...
its just get on my nerves..
i kept quiet of your shit!

hilarious 2009

2009-12-30T03:36:00.000-08:00

herious...
guess what?!
2009 is coming to an END soon..
in just a few hours or sshud i say in a day??

Wahehehs..;)
anyway..
lets recap 2009..

My review/Reflection fer 2009:

The most Happiest and saddness moments..
This year is full of worries,suprisesand stuffs..
some of them i can take and certain i cant..haiss..
i lost someone tat cherishme and loved me..and he nolonger do now..
idk if he reaali care about me still..

school year ends.2 years passed so fast..i
what worries me is i'm gng start werk verrii soon..hais..
so fortunate on the 7th january 2010 i will be having my interviews..
hope i get the slot..*wink*..

my friendship is the most that made me happy..
my friend were the one tat made me smile till now..
they were the ones i have and go to when i ws down.
they were the ones that made me smilling,be a strong person.i thanks them..
thankieu very the much my dear friends..
idk what to do if u gerls werent around..thanks..

lastly my family were there when i need them the most..
financial wise..and support..
i love them..very the much..thanks eu..
nthing can replace them..
my own blood..

okay thats my reflection on 2009..

now..today my day start with a smile..
i finally had enuf rest..i haf sufficient sleep..at last!?
hahash..
i went out with my yana..hehe..
accompany her get a new phone..so she sign up a new plan!
wow!happie fer eu gerl..stay in touch..hehe
then went sroound the tpy with her..
had dinner at mcdonals.
oh god?!so full..
hehe..
then..
we went espa
lanadae..went arround to chill but its started raining..haish..
so we sat in marina square..
b was a bit out of mind..her mind is not with her today..
so sad fer heer..
now.at her cribs
..waiting fer time to go home..hais..hehe..
i'm so happy to go out with her today..
thanks b!cheers..

and fer the past f**K people..
get lost..
eur not in my list anymore..
eu freaking get ur ass out of my life..
eu just making thing worst fer myself..
so pls!out..
i dun regret being friends with u or not..
cause eu dont mean a thing to me at all..fullstop!.

peoplees..
toodles!
happy new year in advance..

bored night!

2009-12-23T10:09:00.000-08:00

my phone making noise!
battery low!
very the irritating!
hais..
i'm so lazy to charge the phone..

everyone asleep..
and i'm all alone..
at the com updating all my blogs..

i'm gg out to haf fun with yana and shiva i guess..
gonna meet fer lunch
he is back from k.l
talk to him abit..erghh..
my stomach and my back giving me problems again..
erhg!!
i dunnn wann eat panadol..
hais!!

get lost!

2009-12-20T08:22:00.000-08:00

i dont kne what you will gain?!

i hate you for doing this?!

for doing something that will make others hate you?!

GEt LOST FROM MY SIGHT?!

over

2009-12-20T04:35:00.000-08:00

i hope to see that's its over. The used to-be love and the nonsense. i tried to stay calm whenever i thought of you.But it seem hard. i seem to tear down whenever i heard,say or thought of you.

you seem to have a happy life. you smiled from ears to ears when you met me the other day.i guess your happy with the life you have right now.you hope for me to smile like i always do. But the fact is i cant.i don't know how to smile like i do whnever i am ard you.

2009-12-19T10:01:00.000-08:00

the things tat i and her did...

when we were unable to sleep...

the crazy us...

i cant sleep

2009-12-19T09:56:00.000-08:00

tonight is the bored day ever!
I'm nt tired..
not sleep at all.

had fuun today.
went oout wit d.
had a new hair look,bored with the old ones..hehe

what is life to u peeps?

why

2009-12-17T05:36:00.000-08:00

Life is full of worries...
Having to think that you werent there anymore..
tears keep rolling...
Whats my wrong??
What bad did i do??
That things have to be at the point that i and you shdnt be one..

true,i haf my frens..
Wud they be able understand my life like eu do exactly??
Whenever i'm feeling down or what,will they be able to come to me and say everything will okay??
Will they smile to me eventhough its my fault??
You went off facing ur back on me..
Not a single goodbye,or a sorry...
But instead u fault,wrong me...

2009-12-16T05:14:00.000-08:00

I keep thinking about you..
How could i nt think abt u,when u keep coming to my dream..
When u keep hurting over and over again..

I never felt this way..
Haiving to feel so down,everytime i thunk abt someone..

I felt as if ur using me..
I really wonder what i did to you that u would do this to me??

If i have ever did wrong to you..
This is nt the way to revenge it back..
Honestly,i do love you..and i relly do..
Bt the thing that keep pushin me away..
Is the way hw u will dissapoint me again..
I relli hope that we will realli werk..
I dun wanna keep hoping things will be alright when thing werent..
I kne u are still waiting fer her..
I dun wanna say this..
But i guess i shd..
She is just using uu..
Fer her own good..
When she alone...

hate you

2009-12-15T07:06:00.000-08:00

everyone tot u were a great person when ur with mie..

but when they knew the reason things werent werkingout well...

they knew it was you..

i wasnt afraid of you anyymore now..

but infact dissapointed in you

miss that

2009-12-15T06:54:00.000-08:00

And you've got a smile
That can light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatcha doing
With a girl like that

sorryy

2009-12-13T00:53:00.000-08:00

Honestlt i relli dun kne hw to say this in werds anymore...
True enuf...yah, i admit..its hard fer mie to smile and say that evrything is okay..rellii...
You may feel its easyy.
U sound,look exactly like him..
The way u joke around too sound exactly liike him...
Hw can i just keepp quiet..
Hw can i nt fall fer someone like euu...
Sorry if that wat u dont wanna hear..but honestly..thats hw i feell..
Maybe ur not in town..
Well..i miss you..
Maybe ur nt in towm.

the thing tat broke

2009-12-12T03:14:00.000-08:00

the heaRt that Broke...

because OF what YOU SAID

the smile simply broke..

because of YOU

The Trust That Broke

because of what You DId

it will be forever and ever tat i will ever remember the day where the trust that broke..

The time when You said..thing will be alright..doesnt seem right fer mie anymore..

and cause of what had happen is the day i said goodbye...i'm sorry... you will never

understand how i feel...

ANYmORE....

had enUf

2009-12-12T03:05:00.000-08:00

i tot thing were going to be fine..
but it seem that thing were becoming bad...
idk what else to do anymore..

HOnestly,i dun believe in love anymore..
love at first sight??
its more like getting in love,just waste ur time..

i had enuf wit all this stuff..
idk..
i let GOD & fate decide it fer mie...

you

2009-11-26T08:28:00.000-08:00

all i ever want is you

i simply...hate

2009-10-28T01:23:00.000-07:00

even if i miss you...
i will never say it...
since u want mie to forget everthing..
i will try my best...
to forget that we ever exist...

without u

2009-10-26T00:52:00.000-07:00

everyday...
i kept thinking to myself..
what am i doing all alone at home??
why am i stilll crying...

the fact i tell you i can move on...
its all a fake...
i cant...
i cant continue things anymore...
i miss you very much...
deep down i knoeyou still love mie...
but why do u keep doing things that hurt urself and mie?
what has happen to us??

i dont see the smile in mie..
i dont feel happines...
i dont feel like talking anymore..
i dont feel nice...
i keep thinking...
if that is how i feel without you...
then what about you??

do u cry like i do??
to be honest,i cant move on without u..
i really try to move on...
but its making to nothing,,
i try stay strong...
stay to be happy..
but why do thing keep reminded mi of you..

i really miss you..
i'm sorry if its from my fault...
pls take it away....
i dont kne anymore...
i dont like the way it is..
how do i suppose to make it
without u...

to peeps tat r not happi

2009-10-22T06:12:00.000-07:00

everytime..i keep thinking of you..
nothing else matter...
evrbody keep saying..
'' gerl,move on".
thats a no no...
i love him...
whatever it is..
i do..
nothing gets in the way..
no matter how hard you peeps ask mie to move on...
ther will be a noway...

he is the only one for mi..
he is my true love...
he is..
and nothing can beat him to it...
let mie tell you gerls...
maybe ur just jealous...

i hate this feeling

2009-10-18T09:56:00.000-07:00

what must i do??
i keep feeling down...
what have i really do??
why does this has to happen..

no mood...
to blog..
to eat..
to talk...
to sleep

surprise

2009-10-13T05:59:00.000-07:00

today is like the 2nd day of attachment..
i'm so tired...
shaking,shivering...
hahas...
awaiting to finish..
just to finish attachment..
countdown..9 weeks..and everything is over....
sayang...i'm so glad..ur happy..
i simply love you..

where is the smile?

2009-10-06T00:25:00.000-07:00

remember the ones that has never had a good life before...
all they have had is a bad life...
having to go aroung begging from people..
having to seat down along the streets begging..
where do happiness comes from these people??
when will they ever smile?

as i walk down the street..it just hurts me to see they begged.,
To see their cries..
have they ever smile??
are they being ill treated??
what happen to their children?dont their children ever take care of them??
why are they leaving their parents like this??
what has the world become??

remember..
treat ur love ones especially ur parents with great respect..
never ever turn them down...
never ever hurt them...
speak to them in a low tone...
speak with them in manner...
never ever forget them if u have had a good life in the future...
love them the fullest....
i llove u mum,dad..

whAt a shock?!

2009-10-06T00:05:00.000-07:00

6th October 2009 00:22

babe: btw, i'm wanna tell u that my resut is bad..i wont be able to go to attachment..
chacha: babe..you freaking joke around?!not a funny matter though?!You for serious?!
babe: yah..i'm serious...
chacha: you are totally out of your mind?!this is so the not the fun?!what the hack?!..give mi ur
e-portal..i will check...maybe u saw the wrong marks..
babe:hmm...

guess?!haha..she freaking joke around with me...oh gOsh?!?Aish?!cant believe It?!but thanks gOd.......ur still WIt us..ahahs
*buat terperanjat jer*
hehe...'_*

2009-10-05T07:28:00.000-07:00

chakahchakah
October 5th, 22:32
5th October 2009oH god?!am i writting the right date??its realli is like 5th oct?oh gosh!!hmm...next week and alreadi starting attchment?!hais..that is so the fast...hais...first of all i'm not worried abt anything...its just...what going on with my circle of friends?it seem that they all busy with their life...no time for all..having to think back to hang around like after work is quite tiring...so...idk whther to hang around with them again?or not?oH hais '_'its just so difficult to handle..i cant think straight...that fer sure...hmmm...imiSmy DearlY friends...YUn,Tiq,YAna,SHiva...ahais...please pEepS.. Do staY in TouchY.,..i rellI miss YA...

holhalal

2009-09-30T06:55:00.000-07:00

holalal...
evryones..please...
please...add mie at www.chakahfiqa.blogspot.com yah...
my another..blog lar babes and dudes...
i miss blogging...but...
i simply dont kne what to write about...

i lOve You

2009-09-25T01:32:00.000-07:00

time keep ticking...

day keep moving..

everyone keep going strong..

each day not meeting you..

just keep making me say

i miss You

And when i am with you.
all i want to tell you is

i love you

my love, i keep wondering today until now..what am i if it werent you the one tht bring me up?you make me stand tall..you make me boost confidence..you make me realise who my real friends were..you make me feel love..trust me...i will never...ever..play ur trust out ever...cause..i want to be with you....and..i lOve YOU.

der same old thing

2009-09-22T21:04:00.000-07:00

hais...
whnever it was plan,there must be something that just doesnt fit wit it..
it just doesnt match together...hais....
tis is not the first,not the last,not the between...
its been more...
hais..i had enuf...
whenever..u all are ok wit it..
text mie..

today

2009-09-15T06:47:00.000-07:00

ahahs...=)
veryvery the Borink day hors!!
tv show no Fun...
haha..
chat with shiva just now..hahs..so fun.

f1 coming very soon...
my hari raya clothes readi alreadi..but not finish sewing yet..
watch stupid channel from just now..
'
i miss my babY..
I miss My Lina...
I miss My Besty At Att...
HAis..
Cya Soon Gerls...
BabY..call MIe SOon=(

I love my bf

2009-09-14T23:18:00.000-07:00

First Of all..
I'm trApped AT hOme..
nothing to do...
actuallly got alot thing to do...but i'm simply lazy..hahas.=)

baby,am sad...hehe..
i never mit him today..=(
he wan mie stay home..
ahhas...so cute him..
i love him..
yOU kne..
I hope tmL i see HIm..
LOve YOu BAby

what is going on?

2009-09-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

i'm upset today..i have someonw who love me...i have someone who always been there for me...but...i still dont feel enough...i don kne why..hais...its my friendship with my friend..it seem like it has been droping standard..hais...we are not close anymore...what happen?what happen to us?what really happen tat everything has to go this way?i miss ya..tats the truth...someone just tell mie...what is going on?to my bf : p.s i love you

freaking wednesday

2009-09-09T04:56:00.000-07:00

freaking wednesday

chakahchakah
September 9th, 18:04 like all other week..wednedsay is simply a wednesady..
before i knew it Hari Raya is like so near alreadi...
haix!!
my baju kurung not even ready like all other years..
like normal..
hais..everything is just not prepared yet...
hahash..=)
i'm at my boyfriend house waiting for him to get readi for his werk...
hshsd...
that my boyfriend..
tell ya something..he is a very lovely guy that i have always wanted..
he understand mie much more then my own parent...
sometime i wonder..
y i never meet him before the rest...

now is my sch holiday..
attachment only starting on oct..
hahas...thats damn long hor!!
isnt that good..
i feel like highliting my hair..but i guess i will do it next year or after i finish my course..
my wonderful course..ahhas..

TO LiNa: i hope ya have a great time with ur DArlinks today...
TO YAna: Hpe ur boyfriend treasue you this time..heheh..just joke..
take care my dear friends..smilling always on lady luck

finally over

2009-09-08T22:08:00.000-07:00

its damn over!!finally!!
i no need read notes..and bla3...
finally...yeashhhe!!!!

yuhoo!!!
so sad..haziq went ns...ishk2...
pity the gerlfrien..hehehe...
now...
wher my boyfriend...
whad he do ahk...

anyway..just nnow..u kne..
he play prank on mie!!i saw his fon his fren msg syg..den nevermind..my heaart boiling alreadi...den gt his fren ask abt his "lover"...stupid sia...at the wrk onE!!!

irritating!!i make face to him!!i hell don care!!den he tell mie he and his friend play2..joke2..want disturb mie!!he think funny!@!!whatthe hacvk!!!stupiDD!!

kakahs...
nt funny ikne!
yesy~tml no sch ehk~~gerek!!!

write ta ya soon...ddadaaaahhhh

@ his place

2009-09-02T07:09:00.000-07:00

all i ever wanted is yaw...

all i ever waited for is yaw...

all i needed is yaw...

i love you...

it isnt easy

2009-09-02T06:50:00.000-07:00

having to think to leave the sight,

its nt that easy..

having to enjoy ourselves in the last moments..

just pulling tears down my cheek...

time flies so fast..

i tot i just knew u yesterday...

we are getting to knew each other and yet it has to be the last time...

its been long since we last laugh,eat together,talk properly..

we have lots of thing to catch up...

i don kne what went wrong the other time...

i apologise...

i'm really sorry..

i had to do what i think is the best for myself..

i dont wish to hurt u..

now i kne what is best for mie...

i've found u...

i've found a friend that could be there for mie..

that would share laughter,sorrows and troubles & happiness..

this is where our friendship started to grow..

i'm happy for us...

i'm sorry if i've ever did any wrong..

the ups and downs

2009-08-25T21:25:00.000-07:00

in life,
there is up and downs.
in life, there is a time where we felt happie.
there is also time where we felt sad..
all we feel is disappointment and hatred.
i know we have not been talking,
i rarely talk to you all...

i dont kne what went wrong and i dont kne where..
everthing just simply doesnt be the way it is anymore,
its doesnt.
u all seem to be on ur own.
more to yourself.
everything to urself..
so i've wondered sometime..
whether that its all changing??
is it true??
wht really went wrong??
is everything ok with everything..i really wondered..

i tot you all were just being ok..
normal,talking..
but it doesnt seem the way it is anymore...
it just so sad..
true i dont talk to some as per usual..
but..
why does that happen to you gerls too?
what really happen??

you all tell mie..
i heard both side..yes...
i knew the story..
i dont fault her for not talking to you..
cause..you should undestand her side...
it could really be a problemfor her taht u all wanna do at her place,her area..
it may not be aproblem to you..but maybe she has problem with her parent that may not allow her to do at her area..

you all cant fault her tat she dint msg you guys..maybe..she wanna u al to undersatnd better..
understand everything very well..cant blame her..
sorry..not trying to hurt anyone..but..i'm stating facts..
sorry for the harshnesss..
i dun wish to make anything bad enuf..just be happy lik before if can..=)

=(

2009-08-18T22:28:00.000-07:00

havin to run away from reality,
doesnt mean ur safe...
havin to run from enemies also,
doesnt mean ur safe and ur happy..

a smile doesnt mean anything..
it could mean sadness in the inside,
and just a fake smile...
trying to run away from the truth...

life could mean anything to people..
some say they hate their life..
some dont bother...
so what does life means to you.

having to hear cries,
having to see tears,droping from someone you treasure...
would mean u may not been doing ur best fr the person.

havin to understand others is hard...
but before u understand others..do u understand urself...
really understand..

do u ke what u wana acheive in life?
do u feel happy?
do u treasure life as u treasure someone u love?
question in my head keep fooling mi around...
but i undersatnd myself..and i know what exactly what i want from life...

my boyfriend,my family,my school and my friends..
they are who i treasure...
and those who HAVE BEEN my friend is no longer my friend..
cause when i don like taht person,its hard for mie to actually forgive and forget the incident..
its not what i want...
this is just mie...

WHy do i miss thAT?

2009-08-13T07:05:00.000-07:00

ALl i ever wanted was you..
yet you disappoint mie..
over ad over again..
whad was i thinking to accept you back??

lied to you to escape from you...
i'm not making fun or even lieing to you..
i miss the whole old time really..
honestly...
rather i would want time to turn back...
but its too late..
you keep coming...
i felt guilty...
i was the one who treated you badly..
yet you treated it a way..
that nothing happen..

why do i keep missing that period of time..
why??
why does this hhas to happen...

i reallly miss the good time

not easy

2009-08-10T07:34:00.000-07:00

the cries that has been heard..
the sorrows that has been drowned..
the lives that has been ruined..
all by,
YOU..

whats the meaing of all this?
whats the meaning of love..
the way you let it go..
is as easy as letting a bird that has no meaning to you at all..
what is all this..
who am this bird to you?

i wanna change all this

2009-08-07T22:42:00.000-07:00

help!!!
help!!someone!!!i wwanna change thIS!!
i nid help!!

JUSt cant help It

2009-08-06T18:20:00.000-07:00

being hAppy Is beIng awaY from Tears
Being Sad IS being awAy from YOU
BEing You Is making mIe sMile

EverydaY Whenever I wake uP,
All i waNna c IS You..
You came in my lIfe,
helPing mIe to See & tReAsure Lfe deepLy..

evERytiME we HAd an arGuemenT,
I wOrried,I worried ThatTHAt will be tHE last I saw you..
And never to SEe yoU again..
I'M AFraid ThatThat day Will HAppen..
I dont wAnt thAt to happen..

HAviNg to LOSe you jUSt hurts mie BAdly..
WithOut YOU,
I wont be able to sleep,think Or do ThinGS CorrecTly..
BecAuse All I need WAs YOU &
wiThout you will Just make my life died..

I wanNa Be Happy With YOU ,
Being HAppy,smIlling & enjOying Life With YOU..
Not,WITHOUT YOU..

Promises Are Nothing anYmore?!

2009-08-06T18:11:00.000-07:00

They treat people like shit!
they treat people like they are the big bosses!
what the hell were they thinking are they doing?!
R they having fun like this?
Everytime they keep dissapointing the one hu cares about dem?!
Why must they do this?!
Is it SO fun?!

Why do peopLe change so FAst?
Do they change that fAst?!
wHen will THey change back to the uSual self?
Promises?whT do really the promises means??
Until This day trUSt mie..
I'M not ever going to forgive You everever AgAin...
Everytime i belive in forgIvIng you...
You jUst keep Doing the same Old Shit aGAin and agAin..
Over And Over AgAin..
I HAd Enuf..

Dont TRy 2 Play SmarT Wit mie!
BeCause I"m sincerly not interested in your game..
anYmore!!

life is what it is

2009-07-24T05:13:00.000-07:00

you never know when its going to end..
you never knew when its going to stop..
all you knew...
is...being happy with the one you love..
and you cherish all the happiness you have..
hehehe

2009-07-23T06:55:00.001-07:00

why do i feel this way?
why do i have to really feel hurt by all of ya..
why?
if u all wanna be on ur own go ahead,,,
i give up..
i sense no smlies anymore..
at al..its gone...here and right now...
nothing means anything to mie anymore..

is this wad friendship ol about?

2009-07-22T04:05:00.000-07:00

Sorry for all the troubles that i've made u all go thru wit mie..bt 1 thing i wanna say,i hope ur happie wit ur life..cause thats the way i want u to be hapi..
i have made up my mind that i'm no longer want to plan for any outing...its not that i've really made up..but for now...tat is hw i'm feeling...

i miss ya alot

2009-07-22T04:01:00.000-07:00

it doesnt mean anythin gto mie anymore...without u here..i feel so akward without u..i kne ur in singapore...but y do i miss ya..i kne this day will happen but stil y do i feel this way..i know ur tired...rest well sayang...i miss ya alot..just hoping the very last day u finish this RESERVISt..i nid ya here with mie....
lovelove...hugshugs...kisses

FRIENDSHIP

2009-07-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

first of all,whast the mening of friendship?
until this day..this moment...i still figuring it out..
i still dont understand u..
you wanna this is it??
you realy wannna this??
i need you when i'm down..but i dont seem to trust you anymore..
i really cant..
i tried..i really cant..
i want us to be happy in this friendship..i dont see i can...anymore...
i really cant...u seem to change....i'm sorry..i really cant trust u tis time...
i'm sorry..pls leave me alone...
maybe we r not suited to be friends...sorry..u just changed..i hate u gerl..

life is sad

2009-07-11T10:32:00.001-07:00

DUE to Friendship..
i tried my best to understand..to really understand ur problems.
but i'm really sorry i totally cant understand at all...i really cant..i'm sorry..
i knoe its not ur fault..but.i haven feell...good about the reasonu told us...
sorry gerl...i just cant...i just cant take...sorry...

i hope you dont get me wrong..totally...cause i only belive u cause you were my friend...
but if u had did somethign wrong...pls....tell us..dont keep quiet or try to run away...pls..
its a stupid thing...you keep saying that u miss him...u regret..y think of that now...its useless...
things has alreadi happen...

it stime to start fresh,,its either you get someone new..or..be alone for now..until you found someone new...

evrybody change

2009-07-07T07:18:00.000-07:00

hMM...i"m realy Sick and TireD Of all thIS nOnsenSe...

I kNoe...PEopLE chAnge!!But...
STILL>>
HAISH!!!

I HAtE to SAy This>>
BUT..YOUR ATTITude CHAnge!!

THis IS very SADDENing!!

I duN wAnnA LOSe yoU...

BuT OL i FeeL nOW, YOU chNgE!!

hards..

2009-07-03T06:50:00.001-07:00

oh my god..
y has things been so hard?
ol i wan is everybody to get together..
have this things in everyone...
a bit cannot take it..her cannot take it..
when will this end..
hais..just finish everyhting up.
now wad...
hais!!!

ALL i Haf iS you

2009-07-02T01:42:00.000-07:00

all i wanna do is to be with u ....
after all this time i'm with you...
i am very happy..but...

things dont seem to go on my side..
for all i care....
i just wanna love u and be happy with you..
live life like we used too...

FAMILY DAY

2009-06-21T07:02:00.000-07:00

hahah..
sorry for not being able to update...hahahah
i am so busy with werk and stuff hahaha..
sorry..
stupid sey..msn having problems..
haish...
now got ghost story..i wanna c..
but just to share .i went out wit few family just now..hahah
to clebrate father day..but no pix.
next time den i upload..hahah

feeling sad

2009-06-14T07:06:00.001-07:00

14th june..
haish..
people i' m sick..sad rite..tml werking summore..haish..i hope to get well..i really do..
i very sad when looking at my bf friendster account..
tk baik sey he put tat gerl pic..wad the hell..my heart is so broken hor.
haish...so nw where is he..he is suppose to like call mie...

love my boyfriend

2009-06-11T08:48:00.000-07:00

taken this picture when with him at his werkplace and while waiting for my mother to like meet mie.

wow!!he look really at the camera..cooll..i love him alot..i cant make him sad..i dun want too..cause i love him a damn lots..

tis was taken without him knowing actually..relly..he was on the game or the computer,,and i just SNAP..picture taken..haahah

MY BOYFRIEND IS THE BEST in MY LIFE..

I LOVE HIM ALOT..

Life is hard

2009-06-09T07:45:00.000-07:00

Whenever i need that SOMEONE..
HE will ALWAYS be there...
But what went WRONG?
why am i living alone?
why does this happen to mie?
i just need someone to be happy with mie...

i'm scared..
living alone in a world of loneliness...
i dont need ur pity..
i need ur love..
thats all..

2009-06-09T00:05:00.000-07:00

life finally coming to an end..
its not the end...
but it will soon be..
i meet my guy at wdlnd just now..
watch movie with him..
haha..very fun..
den...
walk2..saw kak shuting..with her perot..hahas..
and the walking..duck..hehehe...
have fun..

to lina my dearest gf..i had fun wit u in school..
yu dont forgt abt mie yah..always remember..i love you..
hehehe...
but i love my bf more..
hahahs...
sorry i ifi did any wrongs to ya..
pls forgive mie..otey..
drop by.love
fiqa..

The BoredIsm...

2009-06-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

Seriously,honestly..
I dont get what else they want..
In life..
they had all They had ever wanted..
Which is to be with someone They LOVE...
BUT...
I guess They overlook this...
WHAT IS LOVE TO THEM?
MISERABLE?
HEARTBREAKING?

Out ther...people tried all way to have someone they love..
someone they want to sahre their life with..
every moment..every seconds...every minute...
TO them,when the clock ticks its an important,precious to them..
But nowadays..
People treat it otherwise..
they treat it like crap...
just like a piece of rubbish..

And when everthing is gone..
they begged for forgiveness..
they begged to be loved...
why must this happen??
Its not ALLAh fault?
Its not GOD fault isnt it?
but why?
when this things happen?
WE blamed GOD,ALLAH for all this stuff?

Are we too Quick to fall in love??
Is it our fault??
iS is wrong for us to fall in love...??
so why is everyone had to go on living in despair...
how will things go when this happen??
BE STRONG MY DEAR FRENS...
BE STRONG MY DEAR FAMILY...
ITS NOT OUR FAULT..
GOD,ALLAH IS TESTING OUR PATIENCE..
NO WORRIES...
ONE GO..
TEN WILL COME...

REMEMBER...I WILL LOVE U ALWAYS...

4th june 2009

2009-06-04T07:52:00.000-07:00

haiyo..hahaha..
i'm today got no mood at all..really sey..i got piss off at werk..
i really dont kne why..hais...for no reason..haish...
i miss my guy...he coming back tonight..haha...
i;m so happy shit hor...hahaha..
den tml somemore he fetching mie..
isnt it nice and sweet people..hee..argh!!!soo tirrrreeeeeeeeeeeeedddddddd

1st June 2009

2009-06-01T05:38:00.000-07:00

today,my man went to Phuket for a holiday..
eventhough it upsets me,it looks nothing i can do..
i wan him to be happy,i want him to have his own sweet time too..
thats why i agree for him to go there,for a holiday..
i'm happy if he is happy..
i want him to enjoy life..
but eventhough i will miss him definetly alot more..
i will let him do it..i mean let him go for the trip...
there is no harm right..
tml i have to go back sch...for what..i'm having training ther..oh god..its alreadi very far..
haiSH..my man will only come back on the thursdayand i werking night shift..haiSH...
i'm just waiting for him to come..back home..and thats where i'm going to hug him like i never hug anyone before...i miss him badly..wonder how he is doing ther..

31st mAY 2009

2009-05-31T05:53:00.000-07:00

today.the last day of the month..
just nw meet my guy...he wanna go Phuket tml..
oh god..i tot he dint wanna go BAli i can like b wit him...
den..hais...never did i expect like he going there..i so the sad..but since he wanna go..
i let him..i just wait or him to come back..haix..
iM so missing him..

29th may 2009

2009-05-29T07:59:00.000-07:00

Finally friday comes..
i'm like dying at work alreadi..haha=)
very the tired..very the much..haha
tml i going out!!
yuhoo...girls out dude!!
we will be having girls talk..hahaha
great rite..i miss my love!!missing him so much..
wonder wat he doing rite now..really...so sad

23rd may 2009

2009-05-22T23:43:00.000-07:00

why must it be today of all the days?
if he knes i love him so much...y does he still leep doing this?
what?i don have feelings arh?even if i have..what about him?why does he keep faulting mie always?i kne i sucks..still..he doesnt need to say all of that...he has no rights..
he made me fall in lovewith him..but he also made mi hate him..for what..i will forever love him and nothing will change that..nothing..i love him with all my heart..i relly do.i love him so much..never did i expect him to do this..

20th may 2009

2009-05-20T01:42:00.000-07:00

For all the day i've been working..i honesly nvr even felt the tiredness until today..
i' m like so tired.already three days working morning....so tired hor..oh god..my legs are killing mie..lucky tml morning..i never go out today...never like go"jln2"..but y?
obviously i'm very tied..i've been returing home quite late..the pass few days when i started working..it so making mi very sleepy...haix..i dint kne working life was this bad there..
my friend going out today..hee..haix..i cant even like open my eyes properly hor..its so bad..i really very2 tired..haix..my life is so..haix...i miss my friends!!
really miss them alot sey..my secondary friend..my BFF..thisis all friends..haix..wonder how they doing nw?whether everything is alright..i m feeling hungry but i try nt to eat..try to diet..really dite..maybe dinner then eat lah..nw dun want..i really wanna go sleep!!aAAaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

18th may 2009

2009-05-18T05:33:00.000-07:00

today..i started attachment...i'm on the morning shift..
first its quite bored..cause firstly i'm on holidy mood..
den i'm freaking tired..and i honestly..am very tired of not doing anyting
at all..really..lucky tml i morning...at least i can meet my guy...he told mie he want go his grandma house...after fetching mi from werk..ouhkey...if he wanna go..den i need bring clothes to werk..hahaha...hayya...so the lazy hor..i feel like sleeping.but i just cant..heehee..hurhur

17th may 2009

2009-05-17T03:53:00.000-07:00

honestly..
i've never feel tis bored..
i've never felt this hurt before..
i've never felt so small like this before..
i tot things were good..
y did things end up becoming like this?
what happen??
i'm totally sorry my dear for really pushin it to far for u..
i should have just gone ther..
i shouldnt have run away frm it..
i'm relly sorry..
truly sorry...
i really love u mydear..
forgive mi for tis stupidity..
i dun wanna let it happen again..i'm sorry

16th may 2009

2009-05-16T01:24:00.000-07:00

today is kinda my cousin birthday..

ITS SHAKINAH BIRTHDAY!!
HAPPY BITRHDAY GERL!!
ITS UR 19TH BIRTHDAY..
HOPE YOU HAD A LOT OF FUN TODAY..

and for your info..
i'm freaking bored!!
i really do..
haiz..

15th maY 2009(HubbYs)

2009-05-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

I love him so so much..Nothing caN chaNge It aLL..

Whatever...we Are together!!

i LOVE you...

during moThers Day

2009-05-15T06:07:00.001-07:00

during mOther DAys

2009-05-15T06:01:00.000-07:00

15th may 2009

2009-05-15T05:53:00.000-07:00

hey...was browsing thru my phone..and saw my picture wit my mum..

During Mother day...i've realise something..and i keep thinking about this on that day until now itself..am I such a burden to my mother??i do have a great mother..i really do..but all i did is to hurt her..why did i?i was the only one she trust the most..haix..i"m so sorry..

i love her alot..could not imagine hw my life w/o her..

14th may 2009

2009-05-13T22:13:00.000-07:00

All of us tot life was good...
We even missed out the bad times as well as the good times..
We only remember the good times...AnD
when we had something that upsets us..
we forget everynthing..
EVERYTHING...
Trust me...
Life is good..we need to be strong about it..
Dont Think NEGATIVE..live life the fullest..THE
FULLEST!!!AND REMEBER GOD MADE US FOR A REASON..
HE made us here for us to see things..HE wanted to show things..to us..to us..

11th may 2009

2009-05-11T06:11:00.000-07:00

Oh GoD!!only god knes how i feel wen we all got in for the dance audition..
thats very lucky we got in..
hehehe..i tink my fren is very upset wit us as we kinda cock up the dance abit..hheh
so srry my dear..
i'm with my boyfriend..hehe..i shivering sey after the dance for a while..
i really like very stress out just now..like all the judges(which is our teacher)
look at us dancing..
oH god!! somemore the dance studio no mirror..haiz..if we wrong,we cock up everything..thats it..i really think my friend really upset with us sey..
but teacher got say that she is a very good cheographer..good for her...haah..maybe all
of us were just to tired to talk much..especially after the dance..hmm..anyway..my friend,syiqah,
got in for the singing..cool right..hahah..congratulations..

10th maY 2009

2009-05-09T22:51:00.000-07:00

today OF all day i miss him so much..
he is at his fren house..
sleep over from yesterday..
i don kne why..
i miss him so much today..
never had been this bad before..i miss him..
i had a very strange dream people..
i dream that i will lose someone dearly to me..
whats that its suppose to mean..
i dont like that dream..
that has totally ruim my mood for the whole day...
hais!!
i really miss him..
badly!!

18th april 2009

2009-04-17T09:16:00.000-07:00

why do we have to fight??
why do we??
i love you so much..yet this must happened?
why??why??
i'm sorry..i love you so much..
all i want to do is to be with yu..
just be with you thats all.
i want you to be happy and i to be happy..i love yu alot.alot
i'm sooooooooooorrrrrrrryyyyyyyy

13th april 2009

2009-04-13T04:22:00.000-07:00

Omg!!I"m feeling so bad sey..
yela..first of all, i finally can like pay my bill at least half..
hahaha...now,i pity my parents..
thewy like have to pay alot of bills sei..
haiyo!i the one stress..
now somemore
who want to pay sey..
my bill alredy haven settle..i paying myself somemore!!haito!

12th april 2009

2009-04-12T08:20:00.001-07:00

SuckIsh daY
wanna kne i just feel so like what today..
i feel do horrible..
i fought wit him..
again..
haiyo..i'm so sad that i fought wit him..
hm..
guess what!
tml my attachment start..hahah
hpe can have fun sei...
hmm..
lets hhope tomolow will be a good dae..haha
i'm freaking..miss my friends.
i look at my secodary sch pix..and how i miss that tyme
so much..just tot i could turn back tyme..

10th April 2009

2009-04-10T05:45:00.000-07:00

DAmn!!
what the hack is going on with my phone!1
it so damn irritating hor!!
a bit only spoil..
haiyo!!this is so...
making mi go crazy!!
i think i want buy new phone!!stupid sey!1
AAaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrGGGGGGGGGGhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

2009-04-09T22:08:00.000-07:00

we went a long journey..
a very very loing journey...
we go thru up and down together..
we had quarrels...
we had tears..
we do had fun together...
but all that end so fast..
without we knowing it..
its that fast...
i'm goin miss yaw guys alot..
hoping we still in contact yah gerls & guys..
see yaw=
=)

9th april 2009-with my fatty

2009-04-09T01:47:00.000-07:00

A very tiring day..
i'm here @ my fatty house..
sitting,playing games,eating..
ahahhah..
goinhg mit my sis soon..follow her go
see her boyfriends..hahaah
this is very borink..haha
tml going haf my dance practice in school..
ten to one sey..so tiring..
den after that go take uniform from my workplace..hee
haiyo!!this fatty working at 7..so maybe meeting my siister at seven..
hahaha..haiyoyo...borinkss..arh!!

8th April 2009_FreAking TiRed

2009-04-08T06:38:00.000-07:00

Its Very tiring toDay!!
I HAd mY dance Practice Yesterday..
oH GOd!!
A tough One!!
bUt...
we manage to Finish Most of The song
Thats Good iSnt it..
Just another 1 mInute More to Go!!
Thats Very Great to HEar..Relaxing!!
But!!Very what Hor!!